To Blog or Not to Blog

Sometimes I don't like looking inward. I like to think that that I am handling life pretty well, then something comes along and makes me second guess everything I do. I really don't like when that happens. Ethan got into some serious trouble this week. And I mean serious! It makes me wonder, like every parent I am sure, if I am doing a good enough job of raising him. He seems to be a polite and fairly well behaved 15 year old. Then pow, something monumentally stupid! Maybe it's just that he still does not get it. I know teenagers have a good decision making deficiency. Add to that Maddy's inability to see why it's important for her to gain weight and the doctors threatening to put a g-tube in her and it's almost too much to deal with.

Oh yeah, and I don't know whats going to be happening at work in the next few months. Olivia is leaving but no one knows how things will be restructured. I don't know if I will be pulled off of nights and out into the Music Director position or not. Heck at this point I am surprised I still have a job with all the time I have to dedicate to the kids. and even with that I feel like I don't give my kids nearly enough time. It's a catch 22!

All I can do is my best. I have to remember that there are some things I can't change. Like Maddy's attitude, Ethan's teenage stupidity, or the amount of time I have to miss at work because Family has to come first! So here I go again. Off to work and pray that the kids survive another day.